Thursday, September 10, 2015

Our Hearts are Breaking


The call came this morning, the one we've dreaded. Our hopes had been raised all weekend and this week. Bailey had been his old self more than ever. He's loving the rice and beef diet. He's out chasing the bunnies. He's playing ball like he hasn't wanted to in weeks. Yet, the sad fact is that he has Lymphoma and we are looking at weeks to perhaps a couple of months with our beloved first pup.

I warned myself yesterday, when they called to say the tests were delayed because they wanted to do further testing. I hoped against hope they would tell me it was just being diligent because they hadn't found anything, but a little voice kept warning me.

That being said I'm grateful for this time of hope and enjoyment of his renewed energy, no matter how long it lasts. Even now it is hard to appreciate his renewed life when all I can focus on is losing him. This weekend I focused on loving him and enjoying his company. I appreciated what an amazing gift his life is to our family.

Right now all I can do is cry as I think about losing him and how horrible it will be not to find him constantly at my side when I need him. I want to go back to just loving him for how ever long I have him, but I can't stop the tears.

I know many of you have been there. My own Mom lost her dog to Lymphoma just this week. It is just hard to accept that Bailey won't be here for Thanksgiving and Christmas. That's how close a time we are looking at. Not years from now, but simply the next holiday Halloween is even questionable. He loves greeting the kids when they come for candy. That's a tough blow.

We ask for your continued prayers for Bailey and Katy. I'm not sure how she is going to deal with all of this. She and Bailey have always been close and it has already been causing her stress.

37 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry. And, yes, I've been there too. The best advice I can give is to say try very hard not to dwell on the future as hard as that may be. Instead live in the present and enjoy every single moment you have with Bailey. And miracles do happen. A few years ago our Benji was only given a month, but that month extended to nearly a year. And going back a few more years, the emergency vet told us our Serena probably wouldn't make it through the night. The next day our regular vet said maybe 3-4 weeks at the most. Serena lasted an additional 2 years in spite of fighting cancer, congestive heart failure, and blindness. Just cherish each day you have. And give Bailey and Katy a big hug from all of us here. PAWS CROSSED...ALL 36 OF THEM!

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  2. We are so sorry to hear this devastating news. We have listed him on the POTP blog. Sending you all POTP to get through this difficult time and praying you still have many special moments together.

    Your Pals,

    Murphy & Stanley

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  3. We are very sad to hear this devastating news :( Sending much POTP to help you at this very sad time. Enjoy every single moment together. Milo & Jet

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  4. I am so sorry. Nothing could prepare you for that news. Sending lots off hugs your way
    Lily & Edward

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  5. I'm so sorry with you... and I hoped so much for good news... but I still hope you will have as much time as possible together. Big Weimaraner hugs and POTP to you...

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  6. We are so very sad and we will shed many teats with you - it is just never easy to lose on of our furbabies and we will be sending all the potp we can that Bailey doesn't suffer and that he enjoys every second of the time he has left with you. We know he will fight with every bit of sheltie strength he has - for that is the sheltie way but we also know like most shelties he won't let you know how much he is hurting and that will need to extra strong for him and know when it is time to help him across the rainbow bridge. We are sending lots of love and hugs your way.

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  7. As much as we do not know you we know the pain you are going through and send all our love at this awful time..we came from the POTP blog and send all our POTP your way...gentle hugs to all and sweet Bailey especially...love Fozziemum xxx

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  8. We came over from the POTP page and just wanted to let you know we will keep your sweet Bailey in all your daily prayers. I can tell from your words how much you love him, and how important he is to your family. I know he will enjoy each day, cos that is just what they do, its us moms that hurt the most. Hugs from all of us pugs and their momma

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  9. We stopped to paw respect. Soft wooooos,

    NukNuk & Family

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  10. So very sorry to hear about the diagnosis. We are all too familiar with the evil "C". enjoy every minute you have left with Bailey. Love him and hug him and take lots of photos. Hugs.

    Woos - Ciara and Lightning and Mom

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  11. Just about this time last year, we were told that Kyla's (rescue Scottie) toe amputation didn't do the trick and her melanoma spread throughout. She has one to six months and most likely three. She crossed the week before Christmas. We DO know how you feel. Bailey is good now but it won't last. Enjoy and celebrate Bailey while you can and give Bailey a royal send-off. You can't change the cancer, but don't leave anything on the table that you'll regret later-you do have control over this. We got another rescue dog so Kyla could train her and it worked. Kali is perfect for us and it is nice to know that she was Kyla-approved. It made things less difficult.

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  12. So sorry you're having to deal with this. We do want to just love our furries and keep them close and healthy forever. We hope you have many more good days with Bailey. Hugs.

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  13. POTP for Bailey and thoughts of comfort for you.

    Edgar and his mum

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  14. We are so sorry to hear this news. We know you will love him with all your heart for the days ahead. Take it one day at a time and do your best to enjoy the time you have left.
    hugs
    Mr Bailey, Hazel & Mabel

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  15. So sorry to hear your news. I've been there too with mast cell cancer, just when I was hoping we were in the clear it came back in the lymph system. My little Ceilidh lost her battle with cancer at only 7 years 4 months and 2 days old. Although the journey was hard, I cherished every day I had with her. I hope you will have many special moments together.

    Helen and the Sheltie boys Beckett and Keltic.

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  16. Many prayers and hugs coming your way for you and Bailey. I am so sorry to hear this. Take each day one day at a time and do some really special things together. God Speed.

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  17. We are sending POTP that Bailey stays pain free and his energetic self for as long as possible. We are so very sorry and are sending virtual hugs and prayers of comfort for you, Katy and your family.
    (((Hugs)))
    Beth, Dory & the Boyz

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  18. My heart goes out to you. Hugs and strength being sent out to your family. I hope you have many more good days with Bailey.

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  19. I am sorry that Bailey is going through this awful illness. I will add him and Katy to my prayer list and I thank you for visiting us and praying for my Lucy.

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  20. We are new here coming over from Blogville. We are SO very sorry to hear this. May the coming days bring you strength and even smiles as you remember all of the good times.

    Abby Lab and her Mom and Dad

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  21. We are so very sorry to hear this news. We are continuing prayers for sweet Bailey and for you and Katy. Spend all the time you can with him and keep loving him it will help you both. Tears are okay it is very hard to lose our fur sweeties so don't worry about the tears just enjoy the time you have with Bailey. Hugs and nose kisses from all of us. Mumsy, Pooh, Chancy and Popsy

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  22. I'm crying right along with you. We're so very, very sorry to hear that the news wasn't as good as we were all hoping, especially since Bailey seemed to be getting back to normal. I can feel your devastation and understand it completely. We are saying BIG prayers for all of you, including Bailey and Katy. I can't tell you how upset I am for you.

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  23. I am crossing paws and sending POTP and lots of love. Mommy said a prayer.

    Ziggy Out!!

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  24. Oh noes. I am so very sorry to hear this. my heart is breaking for you. Although we've all been through this, it never ever gets any easier. Ever. I am thrilled that Bailey is feeling good and happy right now. Soak up these days, take lots of videos and pictures. You will treasure them forever.
    Gives Katy a big {{hug}}} and lots of ear licks from me.
    I am sendin' lots of AireZens your way..and tons of {{hugs}}}
    Kisses,
    Ruby ♥♥

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  25. So sorry to hear this sad news about Bailey. We hope you can have some more quality time together. Sending lots of Healing Pawkisses and Purrayers to all of you <3 <3 <3

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  26. Word cannot express how sad I am to here this news. hugs.

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  27. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
    Janice, Snuggles, Sassy, and Dixie

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  28. I'm so sorry. I hope your remaining days with Bailey are happy and peaceful.

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  29. I don't even have the words that convey how devasted I am to read this. The second I read the heading of this post my heart went to my throat. I am crying. I am simply heartbroken. I wish I could be there to help offer some comfort. I just can't believe what I am reading. I am sending prayers and love and if there is anything at all I can do to be of any type of help. I am here. My heart is simply broken. xoxoxo
    DakotasDen

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  30. Sending you all our good thoughts and prayers.

    Hugs,
    Lily Belle & Muffin

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  31. We are so sad to read this. Make special moments each day at a time.

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  32. We are so sorry to read this news. We are keeping our paws crossed for all of you during this difficult time.

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  33. It breaks my heart also reading this. My first Scot, Wee Robbie, was diagnosed with lymphoma the day they announced that Jackie Kennedy had gotten a lymphoma diagnosis in 1994. The companion of my youth.
    We had gotten a break in the weather an a warm day I carried him to a place in the park and we sat for hours just enjoying the sunshine.
    These days are grace are hard but cherish them and put other things aside so you can be together.
    Blessings
    Sweet William The Scot

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  34. We are definitely sad to hear this news. It is hard on the hoomans when a pup crosses the bridge, especially a pawsome pup like Bailey. You and your pack are in our thoughts and prayers.

    Dog Speed,

    Sherman, Gemini & Dog Dad

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  35. That is sad news indeed,we keep you all in our thoughts and prayers,that you get to enjoy some more time together,xx Rachel and Speedy

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  36. So very very sorry to be reading this. Will keep you in my prayers. Enjoy each and every day.
    Luvs
    Marty's Mom

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